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| Haha xanga looks weird from my phone but I was laying down simply doing nothing so I thought it was I time for an update =) so hmm...today I skipped school but not because I was being a bad child but because two of my classes got cancelled and I had three (physiology...and than histology...and than organic) from 915 till 1215 and so I didn't gooo one class doesn't seem to be worth it anymore lol. Plus this is our last week in class so eh its w.e tomorrow I have a cis quiz (computers class) and I go home. And the only reason I'm going to that class is because of the quiz.
So today I got my grades back for the 2nd exam...not the best of grades =( actually it was like awfulll embarassinggg and I was emo for most of today. But eh whatever I'm gonna work my ass off for finals and whatever happens happens...I think I'm just a bad test taker...ill know the material as good as anyone in the class...maybe not the best...but enuff to get that high grade. Yet when the grades come out I'm the one with the low grade and my friends aced it...and its like uhhh nedaa what happened you knew ths...and I really don't know what happens? Maybe I should read more duaa before I start my exam =D
Enuff about school. That's all I talk about!!!! Someone help me snap outta it.
So um I saw this cute purse the other day verryyyy chic and it was navy bluee except I wasn't carrying enuff cash..so I went back for it the next day and it was goneeeee =( jkdsjfkdsdfjkldsdfjkodsdfjkodlsdfj lol the dude said he can order one for me I told him id get back to him. If I had a picture on my phone I would've uploaded it. Like it was realllyyy cute =D why can't life be like shopping. Fast easyy fun pretty ha.ha
Mmk my fingers are starting to hurt from this phone. So ill just leave it at that
<333 nedaa. | | |
| so i'm in class right now...and i dunno i felt like typing in here! OH SNAP class is almost ending..anyways so i was thinking.. actually i'll save my thoughts till later [ if i can member then till than haha] cuz yeah class just finished. so um. any new good songs? i'm tired of the playlists on my ipod i neeed new music actually u dont need music. but still =/ <3 nedaa | | |
| Hi CAnUsAySpEcIal! It's been 1733 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium?
^^ haha that always gets me laughing. NO! i will NOT go premium. sheesh. why would i pay to blog when i can blog for freeeeeee. hmm i wonder..if blogging wasnt for free and you had to pay to voice ur opinon on the internet...would people do it as much anymore? ...yeah it wouldnt stop them. i dont think money stops us from doing things. it just stops us from doing things at the MOMENT, but eventually people will save up and get what they want...well actually it depends on how much it iss...i mean yeah money has stoped many people from attending college...getting married..but i'm talking about things that range 1000 and less :) haha. i'm too sleepy to know what the heck i'm talking about. so excuse me. anyways
so um my weekend just totally went to waist, i had plans..i really did...the plan was...study physiology...finish ur endocrine packet...than start on histology...but um...lets see... what happened was...um..i didnt...because i was being a dumb loser...and i um...spent my days talking on the phone...and yeah the phone calls were with people that ment the world to me...but i wish i was a little more moderate in my life...like okayyy i could've studied and talked on the phone...but i just talked and talked and than when i finished went and waisted more time...and i cant even member what it was....4 days that could've been major studying...BAM! gone to waist. it makes me emo...and the thing is when exam times comes...i just SIT THERE WISHINGGGG i had more days. but its like ummm what about now?! this could be the extra day ur going to wish for before ur exam...i want to have all my material done FOR ONCE! walk into an exam confident. i think what stops me is that there has been a couple of times where i walked in confident, and than i walk out like a loser it bothers me how when i study i dont do so well and when i study last minute and just pull an all nighter i'll do better. but latley that hasnt even been working. i'm not exactly sure what works with me now...i mean no one said med school was going to be easy...i just wished i had a break everyonce a while...i mean i had a break this weekend but the thing is jordan well the area i live in is soooo boringggg theres nothing to do around here and no one to do it with. i mean theres reema. i love her to death i would do anything with her...but she has her own studying to do... ugh i dunno. i know that i need finals to be OVER and i need that stupid 14 or 16 whatever day break i want to go shoppingggg and go to the mall i feel sooooo outtaa date with my fashion and i need to be in touch with all my friends again i feel like a bad friend. but ughh it feels like so much is going onn and its hard explaining that to your friends when they're across the universe...i wish i was more moderate about that...theres sooo many things i'd like to change in myself i dunno where to start. and where does someone start? i wish i wasnt so biotchy to my sister sometimes...but than i wish she wasnt so biotchy either...where do i start in that? do i wait till she changes? or do i change myself? and why do i havta change at all? should i just accept the fact that me and her dont get a long like we used too? or should i try to make things better and try to bring back the old days? i dont know if i even care anymore...i just dont like things at home being so dramatic for my mother...shes been wanting to go back to the states but the ONE thing that keeps her back the most is me and my sister. we cant get along...and she doesnt want us to eat each other alive while shes gone. 3anjad its pathatic that two SISTERS cant get along..but i think its all the stress...i have stress from being a medschool freshmen...which my anatomy physiology histology and ORGANIC CHEM...and her being a 2nd year medschool student...she has all her systems [and if u dont know what that is ask i dont feel like going into detail] wait...haha who actually reads this xanga anyways?! lol she has her systems and thats very stressfull so i guess we both find each other to put out our anger...but it seriously needs to stop. i feel selfish. i feel selfish that my mother hasta stay somewhere far away from my father just because shes worried about me and my sister. we're adults now. [wahooo finally 18]. she has other kids to worry about and they should be with their father not hereee hopefully me and her can learn to get along...and prove to my mother that we do...so she wont be tooo worried about leaving us to live with each other.
wow i think i went everywhere with this post...but i was just typing what comes to mind without actually editing it to make sense...sorry readers [like i said...if theres any]
after writting the wahoo finally 18 thing. it just hit me. i turned 18. wow. my birthday is on MAR 25 and right now its MAY 25 and it JUST HIT ME! ..noooooooooooo my bday is gone!! someone bring it back =[ ahhh oh well i'll wait till the 19th bday..even though 18 is cooler. like a 16th bday is cooler than a 17th and 18th is cooler than 17..wow 17 sucked. i'm glad to be 18 =D
oh did i mention that i need to learn how to drive manual cuz i need a stupid jordanian licence!!! i use public transportation here =D yay me. did i just mispell that? haha oh well who caress no one reads this thingg and if u got this far than wow ur cool =] haha okay i'm gonna stop. reema A.K.A ramen called so i shall go return her call
i think i'm going to write here more often...not because people actually read it but i dunno to just simply take all ur thoughts and put them into words..even if the words all together dont make sense ..its always better to let it out :)
good night :)
<3 nedaa.
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| so I just read intisars post and I realized i have not written in here since eid ul fitar and tomorrow is eid ul adhaa haha thats suchaa weird coincidence anywayss umm life is good. I miss my dad. it feels like my moms always stressed being the only person taking care of the whole family...welll I mean yeah my dads stressed over there too but I mean my mom has MAJOR stress and whenever she yells sometimes I get pissed but if i really do think about it i dont blame her. I cant imagine growing up and working so hard and at the end not having children that respect me. that must suck and it MUST hurt our parents feelings whenever we yell back or say mean things to them or even raise our voice. I mean yeah sometimes they can be a pain they just simply say "NO" to things without even taking whatever we havta ask for into consideration...but i guess no one is perfect. anyways the rest of my life imvolves studying. alhamdulilah im so happy being here. I mean im so far away from drama...I'm not involved in any...and I'm doing something I've always dreamed about. I met this one girl named Reema since i came here and alhamdulilah we get along greatt =D. we went shopping and got our hair cutt after our exams and that was fun. and now its eid break so my moms finding the worlds most random chorus for me and my siblings and the maid to do. lol moms...cant live with em...cant live without them. so hmm i'm in search of a new phone i have the tmobile wing but the buttons popped off somehow?! i dont understand what happened cuz i mean i didnt even drop it...i was on the bus and this girl really liked my phone and the min i got off the bus the buttons were gone! i mean talk about random. I've become a strong believer of the evil eye lol. but yeah any suggestions? [smtn affordable lol] not like some vertu phone or anything like that....mmk well I'm hungry ...so I'm gonna go grab smtn to eat. untill next time. OH WAIT! i forgot to ask! what the heck is going on with DUA?! and our badass MSA?!?! speaking of MSA...whats this years MIST THEME..ahah man I miss those days. <3 NedOoOoO | | |
| EID MUBARAK!!! =] SO alhamdulilah ramadan was great! i actually finished the quran ahhh thats like the best accomplishment i've done in a WHILEEE and now eid is finally here! which means: I CAN FINALLY CARRY A WATER BOTTLE AROUND CAMPUS..WOOT WOOT alrighty well i hope everyone had ramadan mubarak and an eid mubarak! =] nedaa <33 | | |
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